[sarah] Cavar

to they for whom I am in the passenger seat

i spent all my lyric years
against slim and straight-
haired girls                             their           dyke-shaped
                                                   mouths and

believing with my everything this thing this sing
         ular & special                we

were akin to light
moving behind itself              trees growing down
instead of up
                                    wrong insofar

as without right’s smooth having-

& true           we have not ever  & always & already right

& yet

still    we drive to

           w/ our shared & sour music

                   & I am still loving & eating
baked potatoes & belting & bumping

& your uncensored songs still get me               right
         in the girlhood
                   says i love you
                   in my sugarname

i mean to say       unsuddenly
we are have always been in
the together


[sarah] Cavar is a PhD student, writer, and transgender-about-town. They are editor-in-chief of Stone of Madness and swallow::tale presses, and their writing can be found in CRAFT Literary, Split Lip Magazine, Electric Lit, and elsewhere. Cavar’s debut novel, Failure to Comply, is forthcoming with featherproof books (2024). More at cavar.club, @cavarsarah on Twitter, and at librarycard.substack.com.