to they for whom I am in the passenger seat
i spent all my lyric years
against slim and straight-
haired girls their dyke-shaped
mouths and
underglances
believing with my everything this thing this sing
ular & special we
were akin to light
moving behind itself trees growing down
instead of up
wrong insofar
as without right’s smooth having-
knownhood
& true we have not ever & always & already right
& yet
still we drive to
gether,
w/ our shared & sour music
& I am still loving & eating
baked potatoes & belting & bumping
foreheads
& your uncensored songs still get me right
in the girlhood
says i love you
in my sugarname
i mean to say unsuddenly
we are have always been in
the together
[sarah] Cavar is a PhD student, writer, and transgender-about-town. They are editor-in-chief of Stone of Madness and swallow::tale presses, and their writing can be found in CRAFT Literary, Split Lip Magazine, Electric Lit, and elsewhere. Cavar’s debut novel, Failure to Comply, is forthcoming with featherproof books (2024). More at cavar.club, @cavarsarah on Twitter, and at librarycard.substack.com.
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