Mikaela Miguel

Seven Steps to Coming Out as an Unapologetic Xingonx Incest Survivor

1
Become firmly grounded in this knowledge:
YOU ALREADY SURVIVED THE WORST!

2
Remove your physical body from the protect your family even when your
~familia~                            
doesn’t value your right to safety abyss.

This may require several attempts

Trust your feet.
Trust your intuition.
Trust the spirits.

3
Build a household in
The Borderlands: Brown Child, Sexual Abuse Survivor Edition.

Bring snacks.

4
Freely exist in this grim multiverse.
Become void of time, live outside of certainty
you’re releasing every pre-existing notion of reality.
Resist   rushing
this process  

PSA​:
​Delicious post-PTSD lucidity is exclusively accessible in
the Unrelenting Heat and Ice Storms epilogue portion of said frontera.

Breath.

5
You will em(body) simultaneous
rageshame     and     unapologetic   survivorship.
If you hold these feelings tenderly
becoming the self::parent you needed in

childhood becomes a cinch.

6
Abandon all hope to live a ‘normal life’.
Normal = silence
Your silence ≠ healing

7
Become disciplined in the art of forever remembering your
BodyMemoriesMortalFearFlashbacks
TriggersAnxietyPhysiologicalDisregulation
ChronicllnessesDesperationHeartPalpations
PTSDAutoImmunityMigrainesNightmares

PROTIP​:
After the mess comes the light.
Your meticulously
obscured heartaches and shame
compile themselves into a slideshow of betrayals.
You will bleed
this will save your life
eventually.

8
Praxis makes perfect.

nighttime phantasy about my phantom penis

awakened,
i’m levitating
ride hard, easy rider

the messiah.
a lion
i keep hxr.
still
distracted,

a transitory loneliness.

Do i think if i cry,
i’ll fail??

aren’t we the chosen people?

come
into this unit,
like a slippery slope
i unravel, reveal

a soft head.

walk on water,
i hear hym say.

Mikaela Miguel (pronounced mee-KY-el-ah mee-gual) is a Two-Spirit Shamxn, Activist and Creator whose gender is an amalgamation of radical Trans and Xicanx cultura. In 2015 they alchemized Ihiyotl, a decolonized community healing practice centering the emotional needs of QTPoC & trauma survivors. Mikaela’s work at Ihiyotl is grounded in their belief liberation is only possible when the entire Self is engaged. Mikaela began disassembling the heteropatriarchy in 2017 via the Trans is Magick Collective, a Trans PoC lead art collective building visibility and resilience through celebration. 

Peep them smoking mugwort & predicting the future in occupied Lenape territory, commonly known as New York City.