Jodie Hollander

Draft of a Dream

I am reading the obituaries,
            looking for my Mother, and I find her
name bolded: wife, musician, deceased.
            I wake up hung-over
with fatigue— I check my phone for news.
            Now she’s standing in a hallway,
draped in a long black coat. I’m dying
            she whispers, and I pull her in close,
feel her wet cheek touching mine;
            I want to scream you don’t have to go

I’m trying to fit the coat around us both,
            but the wool won’t stretch. I yank
at the buttons, but they won’t reach—
            our trunks wrestle for room,
our arms fight for space inside a sleeve,
            I’m suffocating.  The wild horse
appears. I hop on its back,
            and we gallop off, and I wonder
why the horse has come for me—

Jodie Hollander

Jodie Hollander, originally from Milwaukee, Wisconsin, was raised in a family of classical musicians. She studied poetry in England and has been published in journals such as The Poetry Review, Stand, Poet Lore, The Dark Horse, The Manchester Review, Verse Daily, Ambit, The Warwick Review, Agenda, and Australia’s Best Poems 2011, ed. John Tranter; her debut publication, The Humane Society, was released with Tall-Lighthouse in 2012. She is the recipient of a Fulbright Fellowship in South Africa, a Hawthornden Fellowship in Scotland, and was awarded a MacDowell Colony fellowship in February of 2015. She currently lives in Avon, Colorado. More information is available at